High School

sucks so much. Latley all i want to do is be home, and i just can't wait for the day to be over, saying this makes me sound like an outcast, but im actually not. thats the funny thing. im really popular at my school with everyone. i talk to everyone and get along with everyone. I have tons of friends and even my teachers like me. i don't have any family problems, i make good grades, my parents are still together after 22 years, i have an older sister who is about to have a baby, and im so excited, but then why am i so depressed all the time? i should be happy. but all i want to do is crawl in bed and never come out. i don't want to go out anymore with my friends im just so lazy latley and i don't even know why im depressed. although my dad has suffered from depression i never thought i would too. why am i like this? im so fortuante in my life, but i just cant seem to be happy. so i stress eat, and gain weight, altough im still pretty thin, its not right, i even have to put on a fake smile just to please people and i can't take it, my life is all fake, i can't be myself. im so overtaken about high school. i can't wait for it to be over, so i can get on with my life..

my life, so far....

hey everyone, this is my first blog. id be really happy if anyone wants to comment, read this. I wanted to start a blog to keep things real. I notice that in my life, i often don't speak my mind and let people have their way. Although im really good at being a leader, i often tend to put other people's need before my own. Its so frustrating sometimes. Well, about me, my name is Brittany, i live in Clearwater, Florida and i attent a privite catholic school. and im currently a sophomore.